- Willl Youu Everr Bee Minee -
45 40 40 40 &
On thiss quiett nightt
I stayy awakee `
' To Prayy // -
' For Lovee ;

To prayy thatt you will bee minee foreverr
I still Lovee youu ;
I reallyy Doo
Will youu still believee mee?

` Would youu?
'Can you?`


Pleasee believe me
`believee mee`

Since the day youu left mee;
I've been thinking ;
What did I doo Wrongg? ;
`I dont Knoww.


#what have I donee to deserve thiss ;
Why didd youu treatt me like thatt?; #
Do you hatee mee?
Pleasee dontt ever hatee me *


myy Heartt wont be ablee to standd it
Myy heartt is alreadyy purged
I'm Exhausted;
Dont ever thrill me again
Because I'm scared.

Real scaredd
Very Scaredd.

So manyy questionss
So manyy Whyss
Yett, I got no Answerr ;
I've tried lotss of wayss ;
From askingg the hell outta my friendss ;
`to stayingg up the whole night to prayy.


No onee cann replacee youu
dont sayy that itss impossiblee ;
Cos I've tried before
My heartt longs for youu.

butt youu began too fadee awayy
Fadee awayy


` Till youu Vanishh
`Vanishh`

I've lostt countt of howw long I havee beenn alonee ;
I feltt un-wanted and un-loved ;
myy Heartt funtionss noo moree;
`My memories startss to fadee.

______ `DesTiNyy Soull` _______

I dontt wannaa givee upp ;
Even thouu the odds aree againist mee ;
`` I close my eyess;
`And prayy for youu.

______ `SiNiKa BouNiKe` _______






I reallyy hope that you'll be minee;


Indeed the chancess are real slimm;


Bbut I'll still prayy for youu;


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=:[ Friday, April 16, 2004 ]:=


There was once... This guy... That really loved a gal...
he loved her so much...
that he would do anything just to see her smile...
even willing to give up his everything...
but he just don't have the courage to tell her...
everyday... He could only look at her from afar...


One day... That guy managed to muster up his courage and talk to her...
he walked to her and said 'hello'
the gal looked at him, smile sweetly and said a cheerful 'hi'


+++===...Find time to realize that there is one person who mean so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person whom you thought meant nothing to you...===+++


Since then... Whenever they saw each other.. They would chat happily :D
the guy was always looking forward to be with her...
and he always keep those cherished moments they had together deep inside his heart..


then one day... The gal told the guy that she would be going to London to further her studies in 5 days time... And she would only be back in Singapore 3 years later...
he was reluctant to let her go... But he had no choice...
he went to pick up 999 saga seeds and put them all in a love-shaped glass...
999... Everlasting love...


On the 5th day.. The guy accompany the gal to the airport...
They made a promise that 3 year later they would meet up at their hangout
the guy bid her farewell and gave her the saga seed glass bottle...
the gal smiled and said thanks to him and departed...
the guy could hold his tears no more...
he started crying...
he know that this will be the last time he would be seeing her until 3 years had passed..


1 week passed... He finally cant take it anymore... He missed her too much... But there was nothing he could do...
he wanted to fly to London to look for her...
but he have another plan to buy a diamond ring for her...
he looked at his bank account... There was $1000...
the ring costs $900 and the air flight... $950..
he could only chose 1...
he tried to appeal his friends for loans but none was willing to...
thinking 1 whole night... He finally decided to buy the ring...


3 years passed... The guy went to the airport to wait for the gal...
hours passed... She did not turn up...
that guy cried but told himself not to give up waiting

+++===...Always do what u think is right... For what may deceive your brain would never ever had the chance to deceive your heart...===+++

that guy went to the airport everyday hoping that the gal would arrive...
but all was in vain...
1 month passed.. A doctor walked to him...
he told him that the gal had told him not to wait...
and told him that he was the gal's husband...


that guy couldn't believe his ears...
he just wept...
day and night... Blaming himself...
why dint he tell her that he love her?
why dint he go to London to look for her?
why dint he call her?
why dint he at least send her a e-mail?
it was all too late...
everyday... He just wept...
and he even try drinking to forgot all her worries...
it dint work... He smoke... Take drugs...
and in the end... He always end up throwing up...
making him feeling more worst...
but what could be more worst that what he is feeling inside his heart??

+++===...Tell those that meant something to you that they were in your heart... For if you don't... They may just walk off and out of your life...===+++

Then 1 day inside a cafe... The guy saw the gal.... All the memories and times he had with her all flood over his mind...
tears filled his eyes... He don't know what to do...
just then... The gal took sight of him...
he told himself that he must not let the gal know about him and bring more worries to her....
and he ran off... Out of the cafe...
the gal called his name... But he ignored it and continue running...
he told himself to forget her but he just cant..

+++===...Once you have love... You will always love... For what in your mind may escape but what in your heart will remain forever...===+++

A year later... That guy saw some best friends of the gal...
he followed them...
soon after... They were in the cemetery....
He saw his girl..
a photograph of her smiling sweetly at him from her tombstone...
beside the tombstone was those saga seeds he had given her...


the gal's friends saw him and he asked them wad happen...
they told him that the gal was knocked down by a truck...
and the day of her death turns out to be....
the day when the guy met the gal in the cafe....
the gal was very upset for what happen on the cafe and began crying...
the guy was the only guy she loved and yet that guy doubt her...
while she crossed a road... The tears blocked her view and the truck just ramp thru....
and it ends up that.... The gal's 'boyfriend' was actually just a decoy...
that guy was just a doctor trying to make a fool out of that guy...
the gal reason for not going to their hangout after the 3 years on London is caused by that same guy.. That so called 'boyfriend'...
that 'boyfriend' lied to her and tell her that that guy don't love her any more and tell her to give up....
but the gal still hang on...
for she don't believe that the guy would betrayed her....
but the incident of the cafe.... When the guy left her....
her heart broke.... And tears filled her eyes...

+++===...Don't ever try fooling someone... For in the end u might find out that a beautiful relationship was ruined by you!...===+++

+++===...Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to.... Doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have...===+++

the guy just wept... He blame himself....
if he had walked to her at the cafe...
perhaps this wont happen....
perhaps they would have been happy together now...
perhaps she might be still living....
perhaps.... Just perhaps...

he took out the ring which he wanted to give to the gal...
and placed it on top of the saga seed bottle...
he chanted a silent prayer for her and wished that she would rest in peace...

since then.. The guy would always go to her tombstone and stayed there with her...
he even stayed overnight...

+++===...The power of love overcomes all fears of man...===+++

he chat with her...
and tell her wad happens to him...
and.. He confesses her love for her...
all alone with a verse in his mind...
Death Shall Never Keep Us Apart...

=:-:=

-:- [ Sinika Bounike ] -:- [7:40 PM] -:-




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